@softomelette: Been here, but this time it’s different, it hurts harder. Not like any other time, when u created my pain, though it also hurts like hell. This time, i created my own pain, The only thing that stays the same is, that you’re also inside of it, every pain and every tear i cry out, it’s still all about u. I hate myself, for feeling this way, for hurting us, for doing things i don’t fuckin want to, for letting myself drown in this sadness. I know i still need to get back up, I know the sayings of “this too shall pass”, those are the words i always use and keep in mind. But this time, why can’t i put that in mind? why can’t i stay positive the way i’ve always been?? Maybe i’m tired, maybe my body doesn’t want to live already, idk. End of the story, i’ll always hate myself, and you will too.