Sam✨AuDHD👹PDA
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Alex Evenstar :
Thanks! I have felt like I relate to PDA until I hear the externalizing examples. This fits me really well, even down to my sister.
2023-04-20 01:15:09
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Tegria :
I believe I started out as more of an externalizer when I was really young BUT all the abuse/emotional neglect from those responses meant that I
2023-05-26 06:45:15
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Bethany (Citrîne) :
Oh whoa, this hits. Do you see links between internalized PDA and ARFID? /extreme emotions around food
2023-04-20 00:30:51
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Minerwa :
I do fawn response only after I hear the task is said with irritation. Otherwise it’s nearly always flight and endless procrastination.
2023-04-19 20:53:17
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Sam✨AuDHD👹PDA :
Both external and internal can do all the fear responses but them frequency of each i think varies
2023-04-19 19:46:49
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Sushi_Homewrecker :
omg- my sis wasn't PDA but she was defiant & I saw that & didn't want that. I am highly internalized fawning PDAer & I hardly remember my childhood
2023-04-20 01:11:36
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Stacey :
Had a BAD meltdown today. Stayed with my sister for a few days and came home today to my home where I live with my parents since I can’t work.
2023-04-26 01:44:39
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josh :
heck yeah. this feels right. I was such a a sneaky kid, too. this is the most concise way I've ever seen the 'why' expressed. ty.
2023-04-19 21:59:37
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whitnee :
Oh wow! Can you talk more about the internalized version?
2023-04-20 13:44:58
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Autieprek :
life but what you describe as being terrified of adult attention and/or trouble with teachers, etc. I also have an irrational fear of making people2️⃣
2023-04-23 21:49:39
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mommabear76081012 :
I was internalized and when I hit menopause I became externalized 😈 it becomes so much harder to hide
2023-04-26 02:18:36
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Sage :
omg I lied to my parents so much. I still lie before I go for a haircut or tattoo because I don't want anyone's opinions
2023-04-24 15:40:25
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mrspotatorock :
Thank you so much! Can you explain more about lying and being sneaky please? I've been trying to figure this out for myself but can't. TY
2023-04-19 21:03:19
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Feiffa 🗝️ :
As an externalizer I’m jealous cause it borders on compulsive and it sucksssssssss but I know that’s wrong lol
2023-04-19 20:27:56
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liss :
my lies would always be ones to “justify” my avoidance, aka me trying to avoid conflict lol
2023-04-26 15:25:24
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nutmeg.pie🐦⬛🥧✨ :
And the thing we all need to remember is that many people are a little bit of both because internalizing an extra realizing has to do with our trauma
2023-04-21 12:49:26
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Marketing in Pajamas 🍉🍉 :
I'm glad to hear more about this bc my son & sister are ext. My kids dad and I are internalized.
2023-04-25 13:51:40
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Nani :
”sit there ma’am” 😅: (🦆 you!) “yes sir.” (Proceeds to internally dispize guard at work for 10 years for NO reason whatsoever.😬)
2023-04-19 22:04:55
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ia3 🍉 :
Mine was definitely internalized & when I got late dx’d with adhd & I medicated the adhd the internalized PDA became external & it was so bad omg
2023-04-20 03:54:28
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Izzi Kat :
was nodding along until you mentioned the sneaky. I...didn't "get" that the internal world was mine. Cult taught me thought crimes = hell. So...yeah.
2023-04-20 01:17:05
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heyitsmemel🇨🇦 :
I'm a mix of both. I become passive aggressive and like....get spiteful with how I do the thing. 🥺 I don't like this about myself
2023-04-22 12:38:58
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🍉 ferrerodark75 🍉 :
My son is an internalize her and he goes into freeze response
2023-04-19 20:25:08
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Rootmich 🍁🌈🌻 :
I identify. I am an honest person but for protecting my autonomy. To this day
2023-04-20 19:11:53
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raspberrybluejay :
My jaw dropped when you said ODD. I was diagnosed with ADHD, ODD, and GAD at FOUR!! It’s so obvious now
2023-04-21 18:12:29
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Luka :
I dissociated my defiance away through creating stories, it was to the point I got concerned about how angry and vengeful all my characters were 😅
2023-04-19 23:05:58
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Ophelia ✨ :
Both of my girls are PDA and we also have one internalizer and one externalizer 🫶🏻
2023-04-20 00:42:07
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Quinn :
I used to think I wasn’t autistic because I used to lie about taking showers because I hated doing it but I was lying so I thought I wasn’t autistic.
2023-04-30 17:28:41
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Mary_Betije :
Thanks. I still feel shame for my lying as a kid and teenager (into my early 20s). I cant lie well to this day. I was good then, though.
2023-04-20 22:27:32
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Lisa Roberson :
I’ve felt PDA a lot but couldn’t relate to the externalizing. I never realized there’s an internal version & surprised by the sneaky kid comment 😳
2023-04-21 05:37:32
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user5099711554973 :
Oof the sneaky kid part 🎯 🫣 i lied compulsively as a kid- about silly shit. then id shame spiral for weeks about being a liar
2023-04-24 00:49:58
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Stephanie :
My brother was loudly defiant & I saw the consequences. There were also more consequences for me as a girl, I was "psychotic" if I externalized.🥺
2023-04-22 17:24:52
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Meagan 💙 :
I didn't realize there were 2 presentations! I'm definitely an internalizer! Lying bc scared, yes, thank you! 😅
2023-04-20 03:17:12
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Thrillhouse :
I cried, like sobbed. It was the worst!
2023-05-01 17:46:55
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megyesipartyof7 :
yep! I am pretty sure I had 3 generations of PDAers showing me I needed to use mine differently. but masking would create terrifying internal meltdown
2023-04-22 21:45:42
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Corvus :
I did the same watching my brother 😅
2023-04-23 15:04:15
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alyssa💜⁷ :
I love this! I really relate to the sister experience you had. My younger sister definitely externalized wheras I was internal.
2023-06-05 12:00:50
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Autieprek :
I think my son is internalized PDA. As am I and my daughter.
2023-04-23 21:16:34
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Autieprek :
I’m glad to know about internalized because my gut has said we are PDA this whole time but my kids have not been a behavior issue a day in their1️⃣
2023-04-23 21:48:15
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Jamie J-Bird Jam :
i was an externalizing kid and then switched as i got older and faced the social punishment for externalizing behaviors more and more
2023-04-26 16:16:57
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salsa inglesa :
I had the externalized feelings abused out of me😅
2023-04-26 23:01:52
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Amy :
Same
2023-04-19 20:07:40
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tinycreativeaddiction :
Oooh this makes me wonder….
2023-04-20 02:10:07
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rock_monster313 :
…Woa… sending this to my therapist.
2023-04-19 21:35:01
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I_dunno_who :
Learned about pda when my 13yo was 4-5. Was close but not quite…learned about internalized presentation recently. Describes them perfectly
2023-04-21 01:40:35
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ret :
Internalized for sure
2023-04-19 22:20:20
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ErrorPleaseReload :
It was a constant cycle of pushing it down until I couldn't. Felt like I was always holding in an explosion. 😔
2023-04-21 00:15:49
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Jay :
wowwwww
2023-05-02 06:00:25
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aryastarmacklin :
I'm both...or passive aggressively PDA
2023-04-26 18:58:22
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johnsonable :
💡🤯
2023-04-20 01:33:11
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