@kitty._.cosplay: last summer really was a ride. even tho i pretend like it doesnt affect me i am changed. i know i say that it helped me and that i feel so much better now but it also changed me in a negative way. if you want it or not, telling everyone about your problems, listening to other peoples problems and having to stand naked infront of different stranger every week does something to you. i know that its also kind of my fault because i was around the wrong people for a while but i cant help but lay awake at night, starring into the dark, letting everything replay over and over. i know that i am not healed. i know that i have problems. the people around me should know that too but apparently because im out of there im ‘normal’ now. i have to be happy. i have to listen to everything. i have to be perfect. if i dont do that theyll send me back. it feels unfair. im still sick and even if i wasnt i should be allowed to be sad. i should be allowed to refuse to some things. i should be allowed to ask for reassurance. i should be allowed to have boundaries. i cant help but feel like everyone is pushing me around. my voice doesnt matter. i say no and everyone just ignores it. i say i dont want something but it doesnt matter. i say im busy, they say no youre not IM more important so stop whatever youre doing and do this and that for me. it makes me feel like i dont have a voice. i can only try and scream and hit the people around me to get them to listen but if i do that im the bad one again and i have to be locked up. im so sick of everything and everyone. i want to say sorry for writing this long text but i wont. not this time. this time ill use my voice without thinking about others. this time this is about me. this is my voice. these are my feelings and i will no longer accept people ignoring them. #GenshinImpact #fyp #fy #lesbian #nmlnm #wlw #cosplayer #cosplay #viral #gensincosplay #ganyu #ganyugenshinimpact #ganyucosplay #ganyusupremacy #fypシ

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