I’m starting to learn how to be nice to myself for the first time, it’s a bumpy path but I’m starting to trust myself & grow past my old maneuvers. When I was constantly in survival mode I spent too much time painting the whole world as a capitalist prison, & not that it isn’t, but YOU make up your own reality. Maybe you want to live in hell, because you really need to punish yourself for some reason unique to your trauma? I’m glad I don’t want to torture myself like that anymore. Just knowing that I was stuck in a purgatory of my own design wasn’t enough to find my way out. I’ve had 6 different therapists over the last 10 years helping me to slowly unravel the complexity of my trauma. It took me a while to find the right one, asking the right questions & with the training that matched my specific needs. Over the last year I’ve been in the process of rewiring my brain out of the generational mental prision I inherited, but that I had fortified & only I knew how to survive in. My mind is getting healthier & my body is fallowing. It feels real good to be building new kinds of #confidenceinmyself 💪🏼 💪🏼 #selfworth #goodvibesonly #cptsd #shadowwork #selflovejourney #thong #underwear #brales #hungryforlove #insatiable #ska #twotone #thespecials #gooddecisions #travelpartner #chillmornings #latenight #eyecontact #fancyhotels #buildingsecureattachment #thrivingnotsurviving #livealittle - @tiemedownsailor