Iqra Adnan
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![i was always the weirdo abandoned [disabled] loser kid desperate to keep pace with the upper middle class golden kids of their super extended tight knit families with endless housing and job and school support and not come across as too needy or messy. i was always the scholarship kid trying too hard because i also had to. rhiannon did a lot for me. when i think about the financial discrepancies and all she paid for it makes me sick. i log time fantasising about being able to hand my mom and dad and rhiannon BIG FAT CHECKS that say thank you very much, now i am free from all you were forced to do for me. but before that she used to just do what i could do and be okay with that 🤷🏼♀️ she travelled the world and went to school, but she also came home and did roadtrips with me. i think she got tired of slumming it, as people often do. i often wonder how it gets decided who gets understanding and support for their disability and who gets punished for not being able to keep up with the joneses…. i suppose it’s none of my business, really. she tried for 20 long years and i’m sure i exhausted her. i was exhausted too. she had every reason to give up on me and not enough reasons to fight. i understand COMPLETELY- hello i was sewer slidal af, no one was more desperate to get away from the hell of my life than i was- i certainly will not judge those who had to save themselves rather than keep fighting for me. but i certainly won’t invite them into the life i have built since they gave up. i will not make it comfortable for those who were in no danger of drowning with me but hollered threats and accusations from the shore then decided watching me drown was too painful FOR THEM so the only logical next step was to demonise me for daring to drown in public where folks could see me doing so. my middle child is a ♓️- and when i did the math and realised that she would be i was SCARED af she would hate me too. that my curse of desperately wanting the validation of pisces women who disdain me had come full circle. maybe its because they’re a march fish… maybe because i have worked my ass off confronting my shit and facing my trauma and choosing to heal and parent them with abundant love rather than chincy breadcrumbs…. but us? we? work together not against each other and i am no longer afraid of any of my kids because i’m not so afraid of myself anymore💜](/video/cover/7475021631203659039.webp)