pov: you've been on jake's side for seven years now. u two are more than just friends, but less than lovers. u two are in a situation where u do the things a couple does. u know it's not right for him to keep u by his side and act like that when he doesn't even have a plan for pursuing u. but it doesn't matter to u. u like him so much that u couldn't even cut him off ur life, even if it meant hurting u. he just keeps u by his side but never asks u to be his girlfriend. he makes u feel loved and important, but he also makes u feel worthless sometimes. u feel that he doesn't want a relationship with u, but u can't stop yourself from wishing that he will change his mind. all of ur friends know about ur setup with jake and they've been telling u to stay away from him. u just wish u could. even if it's wrong, u know ur feelings are getting deeper and deeper, which causes u to fall for him. u already love him. because he's not committed to u, u often see him with somebody else. of course, u don't have the courage to confront him because u don't have rights. all u can do is ignore it. one night, u were lying down ur bed, thinking about jake. it's been three days since he hasn't responded to any of ur messages. u're becoming worried and curious about what he's been up to. u want to sleep, but u can't get him off ur mind. while staring at the ceiling, u were caught off guard when u received a response from him, asking u to come over. u immediately got up from ur bed. after three days of silence, the message came as a shock, and u couldn't resist the urge to reply instantly, letting him know that you were on ur way. when it comes to him, u're really just one call away. when u arrive at his unit, u enter the passcode. the door opened, and u stepped inside. the place was dark, but as ur eyes adjusted to the dim lighting, u could see him sitting on the couch with a drink in his hand. he looked up as u entered, and the smile spread across his face. u crossed the room and sat down next to him. "u came," he said with drunkenness in his tone. "of course," ur voice is barely a whisper. "i miss you," he said, pulling u closer to him for a hug. after three days of ignoring u, here he is. u didn't react because u didn't know if he actually meant it or if he was just drunk. after three days of ignoring u, here he is. "come on, i'll take u to ur room," u said, breaking the hug and giving him a cold treatment. he seems to notice it. "don't u miss me?" he asked with a emotional look on his face. or maybe it's just the alcohol. u stared at his face, and his eyes were sparkling in the dim light. u sighed, taking time to compose ur words. after seven years of being by his side, u think that it's the right time to ask him. "what am i to u, jake?" u asked, finding the right answer in his looks. he was surprised at first but was able to answer. "i like u," he said shortly, but u don't feel anything towards it. u wonder how he let those words come out of his mouth when he didn't mean it. u faked a laugh before answering, "but u don't mean it." "what's with u? i said i like u, isn't that enough?" he answered with frustration. "but not enough for u to pursue me, right?" it made ur heart break. u knew what u said is right, but somehow ur hoping that he'd deny it. "i'm sorry, i just can't," he said, looking away from u. u don't even feel any tears in ur eyes. maybe because u've already cried countless times because of him. "why can't u?" u asked with a gentle voice. u are really hurting at this moment and u've never been this hurt before. "maybe i just like ur company," he answered. it's already clear to u but hearing him come from him made it even clearer that u should stop hoping. u smiled painfully as u looked at him. u knew that he had been staring at u with a heart of doubt. "thanks for ur honesty," u whispered. u decided to leave now. not just in his place, but in his life. (comsec++) #enhypen #enhypenpov #jake #JAKE #simjaeyun #SIMJAEYUN #fyp #FYP - @jayaein_