@spicyspecz: vent… it’s disappointing that i’ve given you chance after chance to prove to me that you’ve changed. after the 5th time of being let down, i’m exhausted and fed up with ur sh!t. so go ahead and live ur life and don’t even think about contacting me again. i’ve always forgiven you for the damage and mental anguish that you’ve put me through, yet when i do something as small as missing the d@mn day that we planned to play a stupid video game suddenly the world is ending. i may have forgiven you for the things you’ve done, but it doesn’t mean they’re forgotten or any less damaging. it was honestly so incredibly draining to speak to you, but i suppressed those feelings because i desperately wanted to believe that you were different. you told me that we could work together to improve ourselves. i told you i was terribly insecure, and that i would instinctively shut myself away when i felt like i was going to get hurt in attempts to protect myself. i felt like i was doing better, but in the end i’m back at square one. once again i’m an insecure mess that believes she’ll forever be unlovable. i hope that by destroying me you fixed yourself. i’m not religious, but i’m praying that you don’t hurt the people who enter your life the way that you hurt me. nobody made the feeling of loving someone as agonizing as you did. nobody has made me feel like absolute sh!t the way that you did. tbh i’m sure that you’re hurt too, because i believe that hurt people hurt other people. but it’s sad that you’re someone who i felt such a connection with, yet also someone who brought excruciating pain to the heart of mine that loved you || #spicyspecs #scara #scaramouche #scaramouchegenshinimpact #genshin #genshinimpactedit #genshinedit #genshinimpact33 #genshintok #genshinfyp #aftereffects

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