@jessikuhlman: i think everyone has a day they look in the mirror and they jusy dont feel like themselves. to be honest i havent felt myself for a while, physcially, mentally, emptionally, spiritually. But God has carried me through. His grace is incredible. And He has allowed me the opportunity to keep going, despite whatever comes my way. I am not lost, He guides me, I am becoming and in the season of becoming changes happen. something great is coming, in Jesus name.