@ali.ccent: #HERMAEUSMORA :: i’m sorry y’all i don’t have anywhere else to vent anymore. i was diagnosed w OCD recently and it has been awful since, and lately i’ve been so tired and low mood and no energy, i’m having dark thoughts, no motivation at all, and i’ve honestly come to find that people care about me but no one CARES about me. my dad loves me to bits but i cannot bring myself to tell him that something is wrong, my mum would rather pass than understand her child is going through something irreversible. i told my best friend that i don’t think i can do this anymore and she changed the subject to talk about herself and said she just couldn’t think of anything else to reply with. and my boyfriend i love him so much but i’ll vent to him in the moment and he’ll space out then go on his phone and i know he’s only doing it because he doesn’t know how to respond but fuck don’t respond like that, or i’ll tell him i need a hug or whatever and he unknowingly makes it about how he needs one too and i feel so drowned out by the noise of others in a wave i have to help them overcome when they’re surfing and i’m drowning. i feel i give so many people love and i get nothing back, i am just overcompensating for the lack of love i get by caring for others. im so tired, my mental health is declining dangerously, i want to admit myself to a ward but they’re all terrible where i live and i want to get better not worse, im still on a waitlist for therapy and i fear it won’t arrive in time. i feel so alone lately that my chest feels hollow, as if the burden of my existence is so great my own innards wish to flee it, and i am left an empty shell of despair. i don’t know what to do anymore. making edits is my one outlet because i can say whatever on here and people will only ignore it without realising because they’re so focused on the video, and i’d rather that than being ignored because the other person is simply too upset to care for me. ,, #skyrim #skyrimmemes #skyrimedit #skyrimtiktok #bethesda #bethesdagamestudios #skyrimtok #TES #tes #theelderscrolls #theelderscrollsskyrim #theelderscrollsonline #tes6 #theelderscrollsv #hermaeusmora #miraak

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