𝓞𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓪 𝓣𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓻 :
i was the daughter who had to wipe her own tears and keep going like everything was just fine. the one who never talked much about what i was going through because i didn't want to bother anyone or make people worry about me. i stayed quiet and held all my feelings inside just so no one could see how much i was really struggling. I was the one who had to stay strong, the one who had to figure everything out on her own until i forgot how to ask for help. I had to become my own support, my own comfort, because i felt like no one else could really understand me. And no one really cared enough to try. I was the daughter they expected to be the strong one all the time, so i played that part perfectly, even when all i wanted was for someone to hold me for a little while and tell me that i didn't always have to pretend to be so strong. I wonder how different it would've been if someone had just told me that i didn't have to face it all alone. Maybe then i wouldn't have felt so empty, trying to figure out everything on my own. Since I was little, no one really asked how I felt.
I was expected to be strong, to understand things beyond my age. While other kids had their parents by their side, I had to face things on my own. I lost someone important early in life, and that absence changed me. It made me grow up faster than I should have. I didn't get the chance to just be a child. I got used to silence. I learned how to be okay alone, even when deep down, I wasn't. Being alone became normal. Not because I chose it, but because I didn't have another choice.
2026-02-07 15:19:14