minnesota.toxic :
Throughout my 8 years of gardening… at first, it improved my stress management and helped reduce (escape) my depression hyper fixation. Gardening paired with undiagnosed ADHD and my desire to live outside the box, I dropped out of college (1.5 year into gardening). After 3 years of gardening every single day, life circumstances placed me in a healthy living situation where I was able to quit gardening due to willpower for 1.5 years before deciding to go back to college. After half a year in a college living situation filled with garderners, I decided to pick up gardening again for a year. Due to life circumstances, I left the gardening life style for half a year and was finally diagnosed with ADHD (6 years into the gardening journey). I reintroduced it into my life again with a friend during a difficult season, in which I began gardening every single day again for another 2.5 years, in which I took periodic breaks for a month at a time whenever I deemed myself to be gardening too much. I am no longer gardening as of the beginning of 2025… this is not a story of addiction, but rather the time it took me to understand that gardening for me was a choice and outlet throughout different periods of my life. I allowed gardening to be my escape, hero, medicine, and life partner as it was and has always been a choice. As long as I’ve had the will to stop, I’ve been able to, but I also have come to understand that with my undiagnosed ADHD, for a long time, I felt like I needed to garden in order to naturally be myself. If this video is on your FYP and you’ve read this comment all the way through, you probably have commonalities or can empathize with my gardening journey. The true danger isn’t a plant, but rather the lack of self worth, hyper fixations of filling the voids in your life, and undiagnosed ADHD I’ve come to understand have led me to the worst habits and patterns of behaviors that I hope we can all learn to heal from.
2025-01-23 04:17:19