justwelshman :
Topic: Why This Is Unforgivable
I cannot forgive that incident because I cannot stomach it, no matter how many times I try to understand it. I have sat with it repeatedly, attempting to rationalize it, analyze it, and arrive at a reason that would make it make sense. I never succeed. There is no explanation that fits, because this kind of behavior does not exist in me. I would never think of doing that to someone I claim to love, and I would never place another person in that position under any circumstances. I was not raised that way, I am not built that way, and it would never cross my mind to act like that. The fact that it was possible for her to do it, especially immediately after I had shown commitment, loyalty, and sacrifice, tells me we do not share the same values or character. This is not something I can excuse, normalize, or justify, because it sits completely outside my moral framework. It is foreign to me. It is beyond understanding, beyond repair, and beyond forgiveness. Letting this go is not cruelty. It is self preservation. Walking away is not weakness. It is the only response that allows me to remain aligned with who I am.
2026-02-01 11:04:36