丰 :
maybe one day you'll understand why i acted the way i did. maybe one day you'll really get it. and maybe that day won't ever come. i don't know. it hurts so much just thinking about how things are now. how different everything feels. how everyone sees me now. how my image is ruined. how people talk about me like i’m this horrible person. like i’m just a cheater and nothing more. it hurts so bad because no one sees what really happened. they don’t know the whole story. they only know the parts that make me look bad. and yeah, i did something. i admit that. and i regret it so much. i wish i could take it back every single day. but it didn’t come from nowhere. it came from feeling so low, so unwanted. like no matter what i did, i was never enough for you. like you always had your eyes somewhere else. like i was just there, holding on, waiting to be chosen. it hurts because when i was the one who was hurting, when i felt replaced or ignored, i didn’t get comfort. i didn’t get someone trying to understand me. i just got blamed. i got more hurt. i got silence. i got coldness. and now when i’m the one who made a mistake, you can’t even try to see me. you can’t see how much i’m trying. how much i’ve been pouring out everything just so you know how sorry i am. and i get it, i do. i understand why you’re angry, why you feel betrayed. i’m not saying you shouldn’t be hurt. i’m not saying your feelings aren’t real. i’m not trying to make it about me. i just wish you could also look at the whole thing. i wish you could try to see why it happened. not excuse it, not justify it. just understand it. just see me. and it hurts even more because the way you repost things, it feels like you don’t even realize i’ve felt more than that. and i’m not invalidating you. i swear i’m not. it’s just that when i was the one who reposted those same things before, about feeling betrayed, replaced, or cheated on, you got mad. instead of asking me why, instead of comforting me, you got mad. you blamed me for making things public or for being dramatic. and that broke me even more. it feels so unfair to me. and day by day, i feel more empty because it’s like you never gave me the same-
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