Yvainely :
short rants lang, but idk if paano mo tatanggapin—sa ilang taon na kasama kita, i can genuinely say na naging masaya ako, sobra, we built something real, something i thought would last, ang daming nagbago and time shifted us in ways we didn’t expect, pero one thing never changed: minahal kita, and i still do, patuloy kitang mamahalin even in moments when it feels like i am standing alone in this love, hindi dahil sa nag aaway tayo because i understand that conflicts are normal in a relationship, but what hurts isn’t the arguments, it’s the silence in between, the absence, those times na wala kang oras sakin pero nakikita kitang masaya at present kapag kasama mo mga barkada mo, and there were moments when i kept choosing you, ako yung laging nag e-effort, planning, asking, hoping na magkaroon tayo ng oras para sa isa’t isa, pero kapag sa kanila parang ang dali lang sayo, effortless, and it made me question bakit kapag sakin kailangan ko pang ipaglaban yung atensyon mo, i realized na hindi naman talaga cheating ang sumisira sa relasyon, sometimes it’s the quiet neglect, the lack of effort, the kind of love that slowly fades not because of betrayal but because no one is trying hard enough to keep it alive, hindi ko alam kung kailan tayo tumigil mag effort, kahit simpleng bagay like taking pictures together or making memories parang nawala na, and i know it seems small pero those little things matter because they are proof that we still choose each other, because love is not just about staying, it’s about showing up consistently even in the smallest ways, nakakapagod din pala when you feel like you’re the only one holding everything together, when you’re the only one trying to keep the connection from slipping away, hindi naman ako naghahanap ng sobra, just time, effort, and the reassurance that i still matter to you, i stayed because i love you, i stayed because i believed in us, but love alone cannot carry a relationship if effort is no longer mutual, and now i’m scared because i can feel myself getting tired, hindi pa ako bumibitaw pero hindi ko na rin alam kung hanggang kailan ako kakapit lalo na kung pakiramdam ko ako na lang yung may gustong manatili.
2026-04-10 18:37:32