@therhodyjean: Honestly I was never going to bring it up. I really didn’t want those moments to dictate my life. Sometimes I forget it happened, then little things triggers it and it resurfaces all over again. And that anxiety, that anger, that frustration hits again. That feeling of losing control of my body comes rushing back… - I often think back, & tell myself “well you wanted it at first”, but at some point I didn’t. and I didn’t know how to say stop. I didn’t know how to say no. I’m still learning how to say no… - Because of one moment, I’ve allowed other moments to happen. Amongst strangers, friends, people who I thought had my best interest at heart. Then the cycle repeats, and I freeze again. I get stuck til my body has gained enough courage to say stop, or until I froze long enough that they got bored…. - I’ve lost relationships, friendships included, or at least what I thought were relationships, cause of it. I’ve lost myself cause of it. Yet for some reason I still wanted to give them the benefit of the doubt, even while I was hurting… - With time, I’m learning to love who I see in the mirror. I’m learning to speak up for myself without feeling guilty. I’m learning to let go of the moments that robbed me of myself. I never wanted to feel used like that again. And the last time was the last time… - I came to college to find myself. A part of me died during that journey, but something new, something stronger, came out of it. And I refuse to let someone take from me like that again. #fyp #college

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Thursday 29 May 2025 05:19:57 GMT