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My grandmother “isn’t racist” but called a black African man “coloured”, she threw a tantrum at the Asians for covid, she’d constantly blaim the government problems on immigrants and use the words “go back to their country, my grandmother “isnt transphobic” but “corrected” my younger brothers into deadnaming and misgendering our older sister because “he is my granson, he is a sweet boy, he is a happy boy” despite her being a full grown adult and this “little boy” she hadnt spoken to in over 10 years was well and truly dead, my grandmother “isnt homophobic” but my younger brothers play fighting on the trampoline somehow turns into them touching eachother and acting gay despite them never doing anything close and simply play fighting as siblings do, my grandmother “isn’t homophobic or transphobic” but a boy with long hair is disgusting and a boy wearing a skirt or a dress or wanting a doll are all “gay behaviours”, my mother isnt transphobic but me being nonbinary and using they/them is apparently just way to hard to grasp, my sister got she/her almost immediately, at most a month, its now been 2 years and i am still fighting to be correctly referred to by everyone, my younger brothers were taught that sometimes adults say things that are not correct and you don’t repeat, they both have long hair and are not made fun of, we joke about them being gay but it is never used derogatory, they can wear what they want, sometimes i have to remind our mother that if they want that “girls toy” they can because it doesn’t actually matter, i have short hair and wear boxers because these things make me happy and have nothing to do with my identity, yet when i was in high school and said i was BI all i heard was “lesbehonest” referring to people saying i was actually just a lesbian, i was bullied because i didnt care if i was being “girly” or not, i was bullied because i was just being myself and people find it so damn offensive, my younger brother had to listen to my grandmother every single night while they just tried to eat dinner, she would watch the news and do nothing but complain and be bigoted, my younger brothers had to knowingly deadname or misgendering our sister in
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