KAL-EL :
I Gave up everything and everyone and started from scratch. I had friends, a job, a home, money, stability.... but wasn't fulfilled. I realized my purpose is to embody unconditional love. So I watched myself collapse in a trickle effect. I sacrificed it all. I didn't care. The only thing I knew... there was more to life than paying bills and "dying". The 9-5 routine was killing my soul. I ached and longed for more cause even then...I knew my worth.
I started getting downloads RAPIDLY. So chose to be homeless and start over. When I was homeless, unfortunately in the area I was in, there were little to no resources for homeless. It didnt help that I had also recently moved there so didn't know the area well. After two weeks and being out of money, a terrible cold front came in out of the blue. I slept outside cause all the shelters were either full or weren't taking men, I called 6 shelters. So I had to walk all night during that cold week because there was no sleeping in 32° weather with rain and windchill... I thought that was going to be end of my Earth experience to be honest. I've never experienced a more physically exhausting experience.
Then I met someone that asked to use my phone one day... I let them. We talked, I told him I feel theres a reason behind us meeting I just dont know why yet and long story short.... he ended up having severe pneumonia cause he was a older gentlman and had a prexisting lung condition. He ended up being intubated for like 2 weeks in the NICU. He had no family in the area, and I walked him to the hospital but he showed me so much in such a short time. He showed where to get free food, wifi, places to charge, and a non profit organization for resources. That changed me. So I stayed by his side in the hospital all the way till he was discharged. I helped nurture him back to good health. Eventually his family came to see him etc. and was shocked that I stayed by him, didnt want anything, wasn't on drugs, and so they thanked me. Turns out his family runs a non profit organization back where they're from. They bought me a plane ticket to go back home with them, fed me, paid me, and got me into a housing program. Now...😏
2025-06-07 08:12:22