🇵🇭 :
To my beloved Haziel, A single month shared with you, and I finally understood what living was.
A house: quiet between relatives to keep peace but loud in thoughts within, only to rupture into chaos when that preposition strained thin. Comparable to a tornado, and a storm if they were to combine. The pulling of the tornado keeping me familiar, close, and the storm that pushes scarily to score: a concoction that brewed fear of speaking to loud, constantly walking on egg shells, being afraid to even forget or the storm begins again. The two disasters destroyed any hope to survive, living and seeing through a lens that didn't feel like mine. School had ended. Yet this time it was different from last year, the sun seemed to shine more brighter. The heat wasn't piercing, it was embracing: then I looked over at you to my right and I understood why. With the storm gone, through every color I saw you under through the summer, the oranges and yellows of the sunset, to the pink hues that compliments your cheek, even the dark blues that i thought id never get to see.
Despite pollution blocking the stars view, I looked at you: my star, my light, my life. I forgot what it felt like to breathe air, to stop and be soft. To let this jagged exterior of roughness be shaped, like putty in your hands. With you I was safe, gentle, happy. A summer that wasn't spent indoors, but with you. That enough I couldn't ask for more. How blessed I am, watching you dance, smile, sing, eat and laugh through it all with me.
You were the fresh air I needed to breathe in all along.
(I'll never send this to him)
2025-07-19 00:21:55