𝕿𝕳𝕰𝕺 :
I really don’t know what I am, that is, for several years I have been a closet trans boy, since 2020 I started using male pronouns just to join team’s with male characters and I began to like it, even when they spoke to me out of role I felt the need to say “I’m a boy”. In 2022 I changed my name at school and came out of the closet, in 2023 I was hospitalized for mental problems and seeing my mother so sad, I had to lie that I was fine and that I actually felt good if they called me by my deadname or with both pronouns. In 2024 everything started to give me the same, but on social networks I kept using my name and boy’s pronouns, but everything got worse every time I met people from my city and I had to change my entire profile just so that they believed that I am “normal”, because I felt judged when they asked me about my short hair, when they asked me if I was a lesbian, etc. But it’s just that really recently everything started to care, I feel more comfortable with male pronouns on the internet, but also comfortable when they use feminine pronouns in person, I use both names. So what am I? I’m not so sure either if I’m really and I’m possibly a fluid gender. There was a time when I wanted to introduce myself as a boy with my friend, but really one day she told me that she didn’t understand that about trans boys and that if I had a friend like that, then it was fine, but that I was NEVER going to get used to his pronouns and name change. 😞
2025-07-03 00:54:09