moon_head :
he came into my life after I had given up searching for love. I wasn't even interested at the start but when i met him, i could sense something was there and so i was with him all night, brought him to my house to play the Wii (true story), we played, he played my guitar, we sat on the sofa, we moved closer and that look in his eyes, the change in pace, the silence. he turned to leave, I hugged him goodbye, we held onto one another for a while and then I kissed him at my front door before bringing him back in for "5 more mins". that was day 1. then day 2, he came over, day 3, day 4... 1 month later he asked me to be his gf while we roasted marshmallows next to the fire i had made next to a lake whilst a particular song was playing. we fell in love so naturally over time that we ended up saying it on the same night, teary eyed. I couldn't believe someone finally loved me for me after crying in therapy months beforehand and yet i had found him. someone who loved me so much even though i saw nothing in me to love and now he's gone whilst I am so in love with him, all of him that my soul is unable to detach from his. our love story was unexpected yet so natural and I'm so heartbroken that it had to come to this. and yet i still feel it in my gut, that we just aren't over yet. I hope that's really the truth and not delusion. this isn't to say I'm waiting for him by the door, I'm trying to move on. I have been trying to move on for the past 8 months and yet he's still in my mind, in my heart and in my dreams.
2025-08-06 04:29:50