I don’t even know why i loved him the way that i did. I have never been this knocked and i think that says a lot. I feel closer to death, than life. It wasn’t sustainable anyways. Would you believe it. I think ludvig and i were actually the most like a sustainable married couple of all 😭 oh but we really are. Or were ig. But he was there, in his own monsterous way. He didn’t just leave. It’s fine if he does now but, he didn’t leave and for me it mattered a lot. I’ll never not love him and i’m sure that’s hard for everyone else to understand. I’m sure that’s hard to understand. We’re solid in a strange way. It’s very strange and disgraceful to myself, definitely. But he’s still the first person i feel like i can go to emotionally. I went to him with this pain. Perhaps i shouldn’t go to him at all, but i still feel like i can. Whenever something’s wrong. Stay with me. I can’t survive starting over. I can’t survive loving someone new and i don’t even think that i can. I don’t know. Maybe. But i almost feel tethered to him after everything.
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