Камиль Гафаров :
And then I realised... There's no me. Every different person who I was been, It's a part of myself or the part of adaptation for the person in front of me. I don't want to be famous, but I want to be seen as a close person to them, a person, who understands them and show aspects of personality as theirs'. But time's passing and these personalities are so many in your head, that you are not able to choose one of them for your comfort, for your a few moments of silence in a nowhere with nobody. You feel as a broken mirror that shattered into a million pieces which will never be put back together again. You feel nothing, but not empty inside. Your mind and body blows in a chaos, in a dance of brightly fireworks which represents all of different 'me' you can't feel safe, completed, enough and even understood.
And then, in a flashes of different selves you see... A void darker than the most minds' who has been filled with sins, a void whose silence is much louder than you can even imagine, a void where the only thing you can see is you. And then you are understanding who you are - You're everything and nothing, you're everywhere and nowhere, inconstantly outside, but constantly inside, yours silence is as void, it's much louder when you're quiet. Your actions are yours. Your thoughts are yours. But they are never from the same perspective. Your brain always work, you just haven't noticed it, because it's your habit, and only yours. And from understanding it, you fell in a desperate hole, where the only way to move out from it it's to create something new, something that you haven't imagine before... Use all of your creations... To create a new you... A new you, who gonna handle all of them, all of different 'you' in one. And after that, you started to look as a perfect creation, a creation whose imagine is above the average level, who's always smiling, but deep inside he only understands people's feeling, but haven't felt them and never will, your mind is calm, your eyes searching for something new, body needs progression, mouth founds new way to speak.
2025-08-27 08:39:25