Therecie :
(1)I’m so tired why do everything in life gotta be so hard. Whoever build this system up i’m sorry but i dont know what to do, like atp idec, why, i wanna know why, i got taken away so many other people got so many things taken away because “thats just how life works,” like i know this might be funny for some people, but genuinely my childhood was so ruined because of other peoples problems. And i just cant seem to understand why, its one big chain reaction, first a boss gets mad at a employee, then the employee gets mad at another employee and then that employee gets mad at their husband or wife, and then the parent gets mad at their child and then the parent forgets they got mad because thats just how their daily day works, but the child doesn’t know how to react so they try to ignore it with games and distractions, but then they grow up with the same traumas replaying over and over and over again like i cant i finally moved out but life just keeps on pushing me back.. like i keep on standing on the same step for years, like theres those big muscles just pushing until my whole body is tired of working out. And people wanna call me out or crazy or unhappy and so what if i am, what if i am crazy what if i am unhappy i dont know how tp get away with this feeling its like a virus, following me everywhere i go, no way to cure it, no way to get it away no medicine nothing. And its just this pile of sadness that keeps on getting bigger and bigger because i just keep fighting but i can’t seem to get away i cant seem to go back neither and then i’m just stuck, its like no matter what i do, i seem to not be enough no matter how real or interesting i try to make myself seem or be, it’s just not enough, like whats wrong. People ask for love i try to give them love then all of a sudden everybody romantasize being in toxic friendships and i can’t and sorry if it seems selfish i cant recall wanting or needing to be or have any of that. But i keep on getting the same answers no matter how hard i try, everyones talking about communication is key, but why aren’t they communicating to me, and why do i have to try so hard to keep everything up. My heart is in absolutely pain
2025-07-23 06:59:52