mondaytosunday :
attachment got you traumatized and wants to push it away out of your life no matter you feel attraction or not to the person, you just feel kinda different and off now...super off...not nice....just feeling like want no one to be around you and saying its love whem all they be giving aren't love but are fake love one...even from a loved ones..deep down inside you know soemthing si wrong about this person, the knowledge doesn't reach your level but you can't do anything for the person, if you do youll be burning out but to watch them grow themselves and fix themselevs no longer you in charge to do their duty for them...you feel like naturally saving yourself from potential and further harm caused by intimacy aka closeness, you feel like staying away from human because so far, all the human that you met, disappoint you since elementary, jhs , shs even on college..so you just giving up on everyone already because everytime u open up it hurts..and you don't want it anymore to feel that kinda same pain again and again only to be hurt and facing and going throught it all over again, too much work and you are already tired to fix it all in your heart, there's tired line for everyone and for you you are already got enough and are fed up about it so no, no more opening up, say yes to bottling up..just like me backthen... no more being that deep in kindness, being good to other people nor a person because every person you met you thought will only leave you sad, teary, depressed, drained, weary and angry (got mad), only bottling up again until all will feel better again..no more come ul sad please..ohhh just please..but tears eventually come up anyway before you even hold it all up isnide before you are able to hold them all up inside... already too much emotional crying baggage and angry baggage that you carry around...and youre super very fckin tired about it..not knowing what to do anymore with this sh*tty baggage so you just pent up all on the inside and facing it no matter what fears you have you just keep it inside and try to be strong and carrying life still, in you......as if it were the burden given to you since you were a baby..so that's it...
2025-08-22 19:51:15