@joyahterbangggg: Hi, I hope you don't mind me putting this here :) Dear syaqur, honestly, trying to build my life again after you is hard. I kept on blaming myself, after all everything that happened is mostly because of me ") But I truly never thought we gonna end like that, I never ever thought that you could be so cold to me, not even letting me have a proper closure.. Tipulah tak rindu.. You are literally half of me :) I'm truly sorry for what ive done, im sorry that I never take the chance to heal myself and pushed your buttons too much.. Im sorry for loving you while being unstable and traumatize by my own past.. Now I lost you :) i lost the person that i truly love.. that love me properly.. you maybe are the right person wrong timing for me, but I wonder if we ever had the chance to try again in the future :).. But I do know you dont want to involve with me anymore.. But hey, I love you so much, every little things every jokes every single thing we did, I will never forget it ").. Your voice still lingers in my mind.. God knows how much I love you.. I really do want to atleast stay as a friends, not being a complete stranger.. but what can I do? honestly, all i want know is talk to you for the last time, have my proper closure :) I hate that my heart can't stop thinking about you.. If only, If only god give you to me for the last time.. I would love and make you feel safe with me, truly :) forcing myself to not talk to you is hell.. you told me to wait when youre ready to talk but hakikatnya you never want to talk to me, why do you have to give me a fakehope again dear, im waiting for you "( im still waiting for you.. I never love anybody this much, its so painful when it ended like that.. I thought you said "forever".. You told me you want me to be your last :) I remember every little things you said.. nobody ever love me like you do and im thankful for that.. I appreciate the love you gave, the moments we spend together.. I never shared the deepest darkest secret to anyone in my life, but you knows almost everything about me :).. yet you still choose to leave me.. I respect your decision, I know i crossed the line.. But all i ask is to talk to you for the last time :) or maybe, be a friends or something.. Did you just forget about me that easy? Did you hate me? Did you even care about me? Did you not remember anything we did? Did you forget every single thing that happened and you said? Did you even love me at all? all that questions lingering in my head every night.. You probably out there having the best life right now :).. but remember that im still waiting here, not to ask you to get back together with me, but to have a talk, a closure :).. And one thing I want to ask is, please.. Dont avoid me if we meet later^^.. Syaqur razeeq, Thank you for everything, for every single thing we had, and im sorry for everything, every single thing i did wrong to you..Jaga diri baik2, leave the bad habits, jaga hubungan you dengan tuhan, kerja baik2, jangan macam2 tau^^.. I put your name in Allah's hand and in my dua.. I love you, my orange cat❤️ take care^^ may Allah reunite us again in the future, aamin...

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