luvONmic :
Im no longer asking God why,,, I cried for too long, hoped for too long and God is my comforg...My story I nvr knew there was such a thing as a spiritual connection, he wud pray for me when I'm sick and I would heal immediately, I would pray for him too and he wud heal too, we fed spiritually from the same ppl in different times in our lives, God spoke things to me which he was already doing, we then connected emotionally, I was looking for someone to start my podcast with about what God had revealed to me, we aligned and it made sense coz we researched about the same topics in different times, all these things were jst unbelievable, nvr did we flirt even once..We then started to connect intellectually,then emotionally..One day he couldn't sleep early hrs of the morning he wrote a long text, of how he has fallen inlove with me..When I woke up to that msg. I knew I felt the same but the thing is I had asked God not to feel anything for any man so I told myself it was going to fade away with time..I went to wrk only answered in the evening, I was honest with my feelings but hoped they wud go away.I remember him making plans for our first date, it sounds like it was going to be a romantic one, I was looking forward to it.We were going to stay celibate and I appreciated that somuch abt him coz that's where I was and the fear of God made it easy for me to keep falling for him, but few weeks b4 our first date...He said to me " I'm sorry our walks in our life are different, we are not compatible." I nvr knew how rejection felt like from a guy until that day, I was shuttered but God always comforts me that I must jst walk in his will, he will blow my mind🙏🙏🙏 I nvr thought I wud let go of that connection but I hv, I love myself enough to know that the one that God kept for me, will accept me with my shortcomings....You are right it hurts less and less with time🙏I cry sometimes but no longer for him but coz of the wait, the wait can be lonely sometimes.."They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall walk and not get weary, they shall run but not faint" Isaiah 40:31
2025-09-14 13:19:20