@_abroadwithbon: Healing ❤️‍🩹🧘‍♀️ I was heisted whether or not to share this as this is quite personal and deep. 2 months ago I left on a spontaneous trip to Asia that I booked to try and heal but in reality I was drowning also running away from everything…. I genuinely didn’t know what to expect from going on this trip but it was one of the greatest experiences of my life. Day 3 of my trip I visited Tri Desna for a purification ceremony in Ubud, Bali, as soon as I walked in the energy within and around the the facility made me want to cry, I knew I held and carried all my years of anxiety, trauma and fear but I didn’t realised how much it truely affected my body carrying all the weight of it. I’m far from okay, I always pretend to be okay and the strong one because I’ve always been that person and friend that people come to for advice and help. The trust is that I don’t like talking about how I really feel deep down and I don’t like making people worry about me because my own feelings scare me. Being neurodivergent with severe anxiety is so hard and I feel so alone, I feel like no one understands me and that I’m always overthinking. Am I healing? Yes, slowly… does trauma from over 10 years ago still consume me, do small things give me anxiety daily, do I question everything constantly, do I wish everything would just go away… of course but just taking it one day at a time that’s all I can do. Every bump in the road is hard but I do get through it every time. These last few months have been some of the hardest of my life, but they've also revealed who truly stands by me and who will be there no matter what. I only have a small circle of friends around me & it’s always been that way, but the people who have been here for me these past few months have become family and have done more than they’ll ever know. I can’t change what happens in life but I can change how I choose to move forward, how I want to grow, to heal, to bloom. How I can be the change I want to see, make choices that align for me, that make me feel more at ease, that let me learn new ways to feel joy, contentment, and let my nervous system feel connected back to safety. This is what I can change. This is what I can choose. 💜 #tridesna #healing #bali #ubud

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