It’s me Anne 💚 :
I told him everything about myself—my pain, my trauma. I told him I had just come out of a 7 year relationship and had been dealing with so much pain. He promised, assured me that if I gave him a chance, he would make sure I’d never go through the same pain again.
I had built walls so high out of fear that if I let my guard down, I’d experience the same pain from my past. He climbed that wall, insisted on staying, love-bombed me, and promised never to hurt me. I let my guard down and accepted him, finally thinking that maybe he was the one. I thought he was being true, until I forced him to answer why his phone was off every night. I asked, but he never answered. He ghosted me for two days, even though I had apologized for asking.
When he finally replied, he broke up with me, saying he couldn’t handle my energy and that I overwhelmed him. It hurt to see how cold, distant, and cruel he was in that moment. In just one single fight, he abandoned me, despite knowing that I have trauma. That’s when I realized that maybe he never loved me at all.
The way he abandoned me just because I asked, it doesn’t lessen my worth. It shows exactly who he really is. It hurt so much that it activated all the trauma I thought I had already healed from. I thought he would help me; it turns out he left me broken, used, and shattered even more than my past.
I wanted to say everything that hurt me, everything that was painful, but I knew it wouldn’t change anything. I wrote a very long message hoping it would be my goodbye, but instead, I saved it in my notes. I refused to let him have the satisfaction of knowing how much pain he caused me when he abandoned me, broke his promises, and discarded me like trash.
I ended the conversation with my last message: “Don’t ever reach out again.” I walked away with my dignity and self-respect intact. I didn’t chase him, I didn’t beg, I just disappeared. No matter the pain, I know I genuinely loved him, and I didn’t ruin him. That’s not my loss.
It’s been 15 days with no contact. He never reached out again, and so am I. Not sending my last message, and the fact that he never reached out, is already the closure I needed.
2025-09-26 15:18:57