@clarkybateman: just in case nobody’s told you, you didn’t deserve that, nor did you do anything to deserve it. we like to imagine as if there’s total control over the external factors in our lives, like we can find solace in the fact that things happen for a reason. but the only guarantee in life is death, and the only solace you can find is the peace within that persists, regardless of what goes on in your life. it’s up to you to create the reason for why adverse situations happen to you, and the long term gratification you’ll receive from that.