@okurafuto: infp x isfp тгк: окурок I feel like a broken king of an abandoned kingdom. I have friends. People who laugh with me sometimes. Whom I see every day. Whom I greet and who greet me. Even ones I talk to more intimately than to others. But I feel helplessly lonely. I don't have anyone to call at night. I don't even know why I'd call someone? I used to push people away. To keep them at distance of an arm's length. I used to joke around and laugh at them. They even smiled at this. But now I have nothing around. Just my little messy uncleaned room, lots of work, and a bunch of debts. I never wanted to dictate my own rules. I guess I just wanted to be myself. But this led me this state where no one's gonna wait for me. The only one who will wait is my mother. Whom I can't and don't want to talk to. Maybe my only way is to just work. And it scares me. That my life depends only on my work. Who am I without it? Just an awkward quiet boy for people to use? Could I ever gather someone around me? Or gather around someone, who will light up my hand-written world? #mbti #art #animation #artistsoftiktok #meme