Rukkhadevata :
Spiritual warfare is no joke, I’ve been attacked numerous times by demons for when I was a pre-teen til now. In my old nightmares I would always be chased or attacked or kidnapped by something, but I would never see its face. I would always move so slow, and I could never get away. I knew what would happen in my dreams, I would die, but I would wake up before I would be killed. It went from dreams to hallucinations of the monsters in my bedroom. To this day I sleep with a nightlight, but they weren’t done. They tried a new tactic of anxiety and anger, when that didn’t work, they switched to lust and addiction. I’m still struggling with this one, I would give into my flesh so many times, and only recently have I started to try REALLY REALLY hard to deny it. When I made progress, I had a nightmare that felt so real. My legs were forced open and I was assaulted by a demon, I woke up at midnight and was terrified. I make myself uncomfortable in my bed on purpose so that I don’t feel cozy, when I feel cozy I fall into the temptation. I disrupt my sleep, I don’t hug my pillows anymore, and now they’re switching to ANOTHER tactic of impatience and swearing that I’m working on now. I’m so exhausted, but I know the Lord will guide me through it all. 💖
2025-10-22 16:54:16