Rii ☆ [𝟖𝟗/𝟕𝟎] :
Fun fact: Both of them died looking for their home, but didn't know they were each other's home.
if i were a women, loving you wouldn't be a sin." God forbid for two boys to be in love, but the two of them couldn't do anything but obey. Because they both knew that there were eyes that's always watching, the judgement they'll face. that's what they're afraid of, they believe if they die together, they'll be born again as opposite genders, this time people and God wouldn't see them as a sin. they believe that they'll find each other even if it's in another body, because their souls know each other, they believe that even wherever they go they'll try their hardest just to be with each other, they both want to be together where there's no religious involved, no eyes judging them and that's what's cruel about these two boys story. they just want to be home far away — though they don't know where they'll go, as long as they have each other, that's what's enough for them.
The ocean is always the escape for them. Because there, no one would judge them. They can feel free and floating. In the ocean you cant hear anything, just silence and peace. It's easier to block out voices. But they didnt do that solely for peace. They did that because even in cold waters they felt each other's warmth. Because in dark waters, you wont see the gazes from the people above.
Maybe they didnt get their happy ending, but at the same time they got the happy ending, free from those words of discrimination, trauma, and they are together, in heaven.
"I'm sorry for getting you wrapped in my life. you were looking for a place to belong.... but no matter what life we'll reborn into... I'll find you, and I'll become the place where you can return to."
Fun fact! : hayden never got to see the sketch alan made for him.
2025-12-17 01:41:04