Princess💕 :
“Let go and let God”. Healing wasn’t pretty. Firstly, I did THE prayer for our relationship and said “God if he isn’t for me please remove him from my life” and he did, in the most hurtful way he did. But I wasn’t ready and didn’t recognize what I had prayed for, so I got back for him after I begged for him to, and everything changed when we got back tgt. Second prayer, everything was so toxic, I prayed and begged God to give me a big sign for me to let go, the next day, I found out he cheated, mocked, and seggsualized me.. but instead of leaving like what I begged God to show? I begged that man to stay and tell me why he did all of what he did to me because I understood him and loved him, to a point I tolerated every disrespect. It lasted for 8 more months, I was so down, crying every day, found something worse than the last from what he was doing behind my back while I loved him with my entire heart. But one night, which was a few days ago, I was so hurt, genuinely felt so miserable and ruined. Thirdly prayer.. I got on my knees, knelt down infront of the altar of God in my house, I cried and apologized to him over and over again. In that prayer, I felt like I neededto surrender because I now genuinely trusted that my loving God would never remove me in someone’s life if he never heard conversations behind my back. So in that prayer, I talked to my loving God heart to heart, and said; “Dear God, I apologize for how I was disrespecting myself and begging for him for love, for being stuck because I loved him. But please.. please. I know it may sound impossible but please I am desperate papa(yes, I call my loving God father) I beg of you to remove ny feelings, I beg of you to make every emotion I’ve had for him, I am so hurt papa, this is ruining and tearing me apart. Please remove not just the pain, but also the undying devoted love I’ve had for him, he’s a bad person and I know that now, please guide me my dearest loving God”. And believe it or not, the next day when I woke up? Just a few days ago?? I didn’t feel anything. No pain, no worry, no empathy, no love. Nothing. It was then I realized that God loved me, that my loving God listens. Let go, and let God❤
2025-11-01 02:03:21