Dani! :
This is true, I been through this due to a very close friend of mine died, they were technically the person who guided me through everything and gave me advice and encouragement that no one could ever do, yet they passed away in a tragic car accident. I felt empty till the point I became a narcissist, someone empty, I don’t know how to explain it but I was like a narcissist. I was possessive over my trauma and whenever someone said, “I know how it feels” “real.” I felt a purge of anger rise in me, I felt offended. I thought that no one could relate to me and i don’t know if anyone can ever tell me that they can actually feel how I felt, the reason because I felt so much anger is because they said their story, about how their grandma or dog or cat and I felt anger because it was different but even if it was different it doesn’t change the fact they felt a purge of emptiness and loneliness. I have changed, I gathered all the advice she gave me, she always like helping people but she always wanted to help me, so I am healing. Even if it mind sounded selfish, I will care about myself from now on and then when I’m in a healed state I can help others without blaming them or myself. ✌
2025-11-14 02:27:02