@messy.minds.club1: The first step is the hardest, it’s where all the fear and doubt lives. Don’t let that win, and take that first step, because it gets easier #firststeps #personalgrowth #believe #fyp #foryoupage

Chris :

This isn’t career related but I can relate. That’s why I have this TikTok. I was always small and had really low self esteem for 95% of my life. The transformation over the last year has made me speechless. Now I eventually want to do a TikTok and a bodybuilding show. This is my 3rd account but at first I couldn’t make a video where I talked in it, couldn’t keep myself from stuttering. I get bombarded with constant negative thoughts in my head. But I have noticed that I’m not as shy as I thought I was at first. Now I’m starting to get more comfortable on camera. This is practice, practice for the day where I have to step onto a stage. But that’s the point of the bodybuilding stuff, I’m using it to overcome fears and insecurities. Trust me, I’m about as insecure as they come, I just chose to deal with it and face it. Also I want to be more open about my addiction story, that’s another area I feel really passionate about but I need to learn how to put myself out there and how to communicate with others if I want to help anyone. Me and my doctor suspect i am high functioning autistic so that’s why I probably struggle with communication so much or reading situations, that’s why I became so insecure in the first place. I was terrified to speak at all after a while. But regardless you speak a lot of truth here, it gets easier through time. Just can’t give up on yourself