itan :
To be honest, I’ve already moved on in a way. I’m not attached to you romantically like before chel, but somehow, you still cross my mind sometimes especially when I see or do things that remind me of us. I can’t help but look back on the memories we shared. Some moments just stay with you, and ours did because those were the times I genuinely felt loved and understood.
You made me feel cared for in a way I wasn’t used to. There was something different about you, something that quietly set a standard for me. You showed me the kind of love I know I deserve, and maybe that’s why it’s been hard for me to completely move forward.
Yeah, I meet new people, I get little crushes sometimes, but when everything gets quiet and I’m finally alone with my thoughts, somehow it’s still you. And honestly, it feels strange. Sometimes it even feels like I’m doing something wrong for thinking about someone else, even though we’re already over. I know that doesn’t make sense, but that’s genuinely how it feels.
Maybe part of me is still holding onto the past, or maybe I’m just scared of loving someone again. I’m scared of getting hurt the same way, or maybe scared that no one else will ever make me feel the way you did.
But I know I’m trying. Little by little, I’m learning how to let go while still appreciating what we had. And maybe someday, I’ll finally be able to love again without constantly looking back.
I love you. More than I probably ever showed, and honestly, more than I fully understand myself sometimes. You’re the kind of person that randomly crosses my mind for no reason at all. In the smallest moments of my day, somehow it’s still you.
And if I’m being real, sometimes loving someone this deeply hurts too. There are moments where I start overthinking and wondering if I matter to you the same way you matter to me. If I ever cross your mind the way you constantly cross mine. Maybe it’s all just in my head sometimes, but the feelings still feel real to me, and they still hurt.
2026-05-13 05:57:53