leoksa1995 :
still those are not exuses especially when she give all my siblings the sweetest purest affection but me , stop the guilt trip ,I think I found the answer ,,,, and it is heart breaking for both parties : she is given a child who loves her more than she loves herself and more than she love him/her and that is a chance from god to leeeeeearn to love and deserve love for herself ,, yes she might be a victim ,, why not admit her feelings to me ,, I will feel that I won even if she admit her dislike ,, but she is cold and belittling my feelings , gaslight , gult trip and again give love and nurture even form outer people ,,, the worst scenario is when a mother acknowledged that and use and abuse that love and play with ,
2026-01-10 23:50:25