BLEP :
I think you're making progress slowly and Im proud of you. You're not expected to get over everything in 5 days, its not realistic. I think its valid all the feelings youre going through, you probably also want to have some control of a situation that puts your nervous system out of control. The more time you prioritize yourself, the easier it'll start getting to not have feelings prioritizing him. Remember, if this isnt the first time he made you feel like this, and its not rare, then dont expect it to be the last time. Unresolved conflicts will always present themselves when things go south. You still have in the center, for your own peace its better not have this negativity be the center of your thoughts. Full control will be when your thoughts center around you, instead of anxiety it'll become a complete bother to you instead. Instead of you wanting to see updates related to his life, you are too busy making updates to yours. Instead of envisioning him coming back, your envisioning yourself living a life that makes you feel secure and your best 👌 you dont really miss him, you miss the good parts, being loved, and being taken care of in ways only a partner can, but it shouldn't cost your sanity to enjoy that. Whatever it is, I know you'll get your peace 👏❤️
2025-12-05 20:16:11