ashralouisa
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ButCouldItHaveGoats :
The only satisfying conversation ive ever had had been with other tisms
2025-12-08 21:07:56
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maud🌞 :
auDHD here, I've always wanted a strong social circle but for the longest time I couldn't find people I really connect to, it was often a failure and it made me isolate a lot. it's something I struggle to accept
2025-12-08 21:12:27
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Mara 🌱 :
and repeated exposure does not alleviate these feelings but rather compounds them until I have to isolate to recover my nervous system the daydreams plague me, but im not daydreaming about me socializing, im daydreaming about a non-autistic idealized me socializing its not me in the daydreams
2025-12-09 01:58:39
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jess :
i get really sad at my lack of friends but then get anxious at the thought of having to maintain more friendships. it's just so draining sometimes
2025-12-10 16:04:07
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Kris :
I want to skip to the part where we are intimate. like talking about important things, hopes, problems, and dreams. But it’s hard to get to that so I just don’t try
2025-12-10 01:13:37
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† 𝕵𝖊𝖝𝖝 † :
I want friends but I can’t uphold whatever expectations said friends expect from me. I can sometimes but never consistently. I know it makes me a bad friend but what else am I gonna do 🤷🏻♀️
2025-12-08 22:56:03
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Mo :
audhd and too many people aren't authentic... and I've found that out late way too often so I'm guarded now. I have a couple of really good friends and that's absolutely enough for me.
2025-12-09 00:37:13
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stella :
disinterest in peers is so real, it's like 1 in 100 chance I'm going to actually connect with someone and have an enjoyable interaction that isn't draining
2025-12-09 11:23:06
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lah :
I want to have the comfortably of a well established friendship with people but without having to spend years of trust and unmasking
2025-12-09 05:30:30
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Erica :
I literally only feel good socializing with other neurodivergent people with common interests
2025-12-09 03:43:37
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DizzyDream :
You are so not alone in this! I go through cycles of wanting so badly to socialize, doing so, feeling worse and isolating. I think its because most of the people I socialize with are not autistic. They dont engage in discussions of passionate interests, they don't show emotion the same way. It always leaves me feeling like yeah I socialized but not as myself and bc of that it feels like I can never quite "feel" mutually connected.
2025-12-08 21:04:20
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k :
and when the 2 of 200 people u connect with are not interested in interacting with u
2025-12-09 14:53:47
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creepy crawlie :
if i didn’t grow up with someone/they didn’t see me in my teenage years i never feel a connection. LOVE hanging out with my long time friends but new people? having to re-teach people who i am? not enjoyable
2025-12-08 21:49:20
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Nicky :
It’s like I also have something wrong with my joints, & would I like to run? Sure but my disability makes it difficult & painful. Same with socialising. Sure I want to have typical social closeness but my disability makes that very difficult & painful
2025-12-08 21:19:15
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in my room :
so relatable, especially the fantasizing about social events. when i do try to be social in real life, i usually end up so disappointed with myself but also other people because they didn't react or act like i thought they would etc etc. it's never as fun irl as it was in my head 🥲 i don't know how to unlearn it or if it's even possible? i guess trying to stop having expectations, but idk... it's very difficult!!
2025-12-08 21:08:59
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dayna patchouli :
I desire being in proximity more than the actual thing
2025-12-09 01:36:32
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Kayla :
I like the idea of socializing (sometimes) but don’t actually enjoy it in practice most of the time
2025-12-08 23:14:26
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Meg 🫶 :
Ugh I feel this so heavily 😭
2025-12-08 21:32:14
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bree :
I fantasize about friends that have all the exact same interests as me. It’s the only way I can imagine it being fulfilling at this point. 🙃
2025-12-08 23:39:18
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JEM Writer + Energy Worker :
I’m disinterested in peers who I can’t connect with. Makes me feel worse. I have a desire for real connection.
2025-12-09 17:47:21
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Ganzy :
They don’t react the way I envisioned and the illusion is broken, now my script is obsolete and it’s awkward. Sometimes I’ll be too anxiety stricken after and I’ll blank out as I reply and that’s alway rly embarrassing 😭
2025-12-08 23:55:17
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squirrelypop :
I feel like most social gatherings I go to barely scratch the surface of the level of emotional depth I’m hoping for, so I leave feeling sensorily overstimulated and emotionally understimulated, so it’s like why did I even do this???
2025-12-09 01:47:30
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robokatie :
I’m also dissatisfied with the responses I get and the reactions I get. So often I try be social & I’m taken off guard by a comment that someone makes about something “strange” I’m doing. Socialising often makes me hate people bcuz conversations could be so interesting, but people are too mean and never give me a chance. They’d rather insult me or brush me off
2025-12-09 10:02:57
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𝔍𝔞𝔠𝔨𝔶 🖤🎃 :
I long to be a part of communities of things I enjoy but the social anxiety of it keeps me away. It's exhausting. I don't feel like myself around people I don't know well. So basically what youre saying lol
2025-12-08 21:30:48
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Billie :
I totally understand this I’m an extrovert and love people and have felt lonely for most of my life. I think what I have noticed recently is that socializing with really tire me out of I’m masking a lot, even if I feel like I’m having fun. If I’m masking heavily I’ll basically need to rest the whole next day. In contrast when I hang out with friends I don’t mask around I don’t end up feeling energized and truly connected.
2025-12-08 21:20:42
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