@julieklingner: Today is the anniversary of my dad’s passing it’s been 24 years and it gets no easier just different. I feel in some ways my life would have been different if he was still here he wouldn’t of allowed certain things. But it is the way it is I had to grow myself. I have grown so much in the past 10 mths travelling through chronic pain, adhd, trauma roller coasters I still do. I am lucky I have my circle the old and the new they accept me and Jules my inner child. They all let her be present as she is the child I love talks in riddles, silly, funny , young they all find that to make me unique and wouldn’t have any other way. My soul is pure and I so miss my dad. I love my mum she is not well my siblings will never understand who I truely am. Unfortunately that’s their loss not mine. People who leave they miss out that’s how I see these days. You will never meet another like me. I don’t hold grudges if I did before I don’t. Too much wasted energy. I don’t hate I understand why people do what they do. Unlike others I need to understand why things happen. I still get sad but I get it. I still hold hope and believe. I have cried daily this month but I pushed through as if I don’t pain increases . Thank you for those special people on my life for believing in me and letting me be me. Showing me my worth matters I matter.
