@thechronicrelapser: I'm officially off the rails, you should try it. this is very hard for me to do or even talk about. I hate this side of Jennifer... I hate that I have to self medicate due to my doctor taking me off my sleeping meds cuz I got diagnosed with BPD2... I got sober for a year with those sleeping meds. they saved my life. now I can't even take them cuz of my other meds. I lost myself when my husband went to prison... I'm determined not to lose myself again since my son is headed there in a couple of months. so instead of losing myself again. I'm going to stand beside him through this tough journey we have to go on. #dayone #icandothis #WeDoRecover #addiction #recovery