beya.treezz :
I find myself not knowing what to feel anymore. When we are together, everything feels warm and real—I feel seen, cared for, and held in a way that makes my heart believe in something more. But when the space between us turns into silence through messages, you feel distant, almost unfamiliar, and that contrast quietly hurts me more than I know how to explain.
I don’t ask for much—only clarity, only truth. I hope I am not something you reach for only in moments of desire and forget in moments of absence. I know I opened my heart sooner than I should have, but that was my way of saying you were welcome there, without hesitation, without armor.
I am slowly falling, and it frightens me to admit that. I just hope, if I lose my footing, you will be there to catch me rather than let me fall alone.
I understand that communicating online is not always easy, that life gets heavy and words sometimes fail. Still, a brief reassurance, a simple sign that I am remembered, would mean more than you realize.
I am not asking for perfection—only awareness. Please help me understand where I stand, because living in this quiet uncertainty is slowly hurting my heart.
2026-01-16 14:46:37