@julieklingner: I carry lots of scares but that’s ok. I now know who I am. I hope I’m here for a long time and beat this shit pain I endure. Only I can achieve that. If I can find a way to go to missy Higgins I will. I have had to many broken promises and broken trust. People will think omg how selfish or stupid I don’t care who knows what my future holds. I thought my path was going to be different. So I will go if I choose and can I deserve it.