@iamjanelleerica: This is my dad’s cardiac monitor during his last moments. Being in the medical field, I was always the one asking family members to sign DNR and DNI forms. I never truly understood how painful that decision was until it was our turn. Seeing my dad in pain hurt deeply, especially when he said he was tired, so very tired. But watching him slip away with my own eyes hurt even more. It was a kind of pain I could not name. My hands went numb, my body trembled, and I felt something I had never felt before. I know Papa is in good hands now. It is easy to say but so hard to process. I pray that wherever he is, he is finally at peace, happy and free from pain. And in another lifetime, I would still choose to be his daughter. Always. #cancersucks #cancer
Erica
Region: PH
Friday 09 January 2026 02:16:48 GMT
Music
Download
Comments
CJDomz13 :
Hindi nila alam na dahil nasa medical field ka puwede yun maging trauma lalo kapag nasa ICU ka. Lagi natin isipin na itong mga nasa medical field may kahinaan din hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon malalakas sila. Kailangan din nila ng taong sasalo minsan sa mga dapat hindi lang sila. Minsan pumunta kayo ng hospital lalo mga nurse ang saya saya ng mga yan bumati, mag rounds pero kung titignan mo mga mata nila makikita niyo yung hindi lang pagod at puyat. Andoon yung mga puwedeng pinagdadaanan nila. Kaya sana habaan din natin yung pasensya natin sakanila tulad ng ginagawa nila sa atin. God bless po ma’am.
2026-01-10 02:15:12
29
angge :
there's nothing more traumatic watching your parents slowly fading away right in front of you . it's been a year and I'm still feeling cold when I go back to that day 😞
2026-01-12 17:41:57
44
bejane🩵 :
Finale extubation is so traumatic to me💔
2026-01-16 11:59:43
1
Monscarreiro :
This was my grandma 🥺 I have all the photos still on my phone and I still haven’t came to terms to scroll there and delete them.
2026-02-04 19:22:08
4
Reem.nacouzi :
Praying for you! This must be traumatic🙏🏻
2026-01-31 18:14:17
1
Mimi :
Almost a year ago, 20 days in ICU/ almost 2 months at the hospital! But after just 2 months my son gained his wings. Until now I can’t believed I lost my beloved Kuya 😢
2026-01-14 17:24:53
3
ja :
Usually if a patient is DNR we off monitors to not cause distress for family members.
2026-01-16 07:32:51
6
KootsMom 🇨🇦 :
I’m a ER nurse and ran into my dads room moments before he took his last breath. It wrecked me. His incompetent physician and the team at his hospital failed him.
2026-01-19 19:05:28
3
subanguitar :
My deepest condolences
2026-01-18 12:35:10
1
Mommy Chie :
My sister always cry before whenever she hears that sounds like toot toot.During ng pagstay ng father namin sa ICU and worst at worst.As the eldest daughter ako ang bumunot ng tubo niya😔.Still clear in my mind and seems like yesterday lang nangyari🙁
2026-01-09 12:22:45
3
PRU :
that's traumatic🥺
2026-01-09 11:02:06
3
Pixiedust26 :
It’s the most painful thing to watch talaga. 😢 yung sana may powers ka and isa dun to freeze the time
2026-01-16 09:53:11
1
abbygo_ :
pls 😔
2026-01-15 16:10:56
1
mitch :
very sorry rip
2026-01-26 07:12:07
1
Kaye Oh :
: Im not a nurse but Im the one taking care of my papa now since he’s on dialysis. We’ve talked about the what if’s and he has been clear he does not want to be intubated, but he had a heart attack last Nov and seeing him struggling to breathe made me realize how difficult DNI will be, let alone DNR. I am praying that when his tome will come I just hope and pray that he pass on his sleep and not struggle in the hospital like others do
2026-01-11 06:51:22
6
Psyche :
I pray for your healing 😭
2026-01-16 14:05:15
1
Xavv :
3 times na sa pamilya ko may na ICU, yung sound diyan nakaka trauma pa rin
2026-01-16 04:55:01
1
carmi ruth🤩🥰 :
Condolence po same feeling about my papa its been a year naiiyak pa din ako pag naalala ko sya ako lng kse baby niya 😭😭😭
2026-01-12 14:21:15
1
d1who.got.away :
I manually bagged my father for 6 hours, taking turns with my mom, because a mechanical ventilator was not available at that time.
I feel you, Miss Erica, being in the nursing field, we will never be prepared for this. 🥹🥹 Sending you virtual hugs. 🫂🫂
2026-01-09 22:57:53
2
songhahyo :
Hugs 🥺 I'm also a nurse and I also signed a DNR for my father who passed away six months ago. The pain will always be there. Stay strong!
2026-01-12 07:28:57
1
Noname :
Your caption hurts my heart. I miss my tatay so much. I know how it feels losing a father.
2026-01-16 01:14:33
1
_lollyyipie :
im also a nurse ma’am and just lost my lola, i took care of her during her last days, and it’s so traumatic to see o2 support went from 96 to 38, she passed away last month ☹️
2026-02-16 10:42:42
1
shigagiga_ :
I so miss my papa 2 months ago . he died fue to heart failure
2026-01-11 11:50:10
1
Ira 🇨🇦 :
As soon as I saw 12 on my dad'a monitor, I lost it. That was 2 years ago. 😭
2026-01-11 09:07:34
1
Saoirse :
praying for comfort and healing sa inyong lahat po 🙏🙏
2026-01-09 23:11:35
1
To see more videos from user @iamjanelleerica, please go to the Tikwm
homepage.