@cortneygetsfit: I thought marrying older meant safe. I thought it meant done with games. I thought it meant ready. I was 24 and I believed stability would protect me. Instead, I spent 13 years in survival mode — constantly checking, watching, bracing for the next thing I didn’t want to find. Living with that quiet, exhausting hyper-vigilance that slowly erases you. For the first time in over a decade, I don’t know where he is. I don’t know who he’s texting. I don’t know what he’s hiding. And strangely… I can breathe again. I don’t know if I’ll ever trust a man again. Maybe I won’t. But the first thing on my list isn’t dating, or fixing, or explaining. It’s finding myself. If this feels familiar, you’re not crazy. You were surviving. And if you’re here now — maybe you’re finally allowed to stop. #HealingJourney #divorcerecovery #findingmyself #startingover #fyp