kei :
Hi Khaylene, I don't even know if you'll ever read this, pero I just need to let this out. Ang dami ko nang kinikimkim since everything happened. Since the first time we met, I already felt something. Hindi ko pa gets that time, pero alam ko na I was going to fall for you, and I did. Sobra. You became my comfort, my pahinga. Ikaw yung taong nagpapagaan ng lahat kahit saglit lang, and I didn't even notice na umiikot na pala mundo ko sayo. Nung nangyari yung lahat, ang gulo. I didn't expect na aabot sa ganun yung situation natin. Until now, I still blame myself for that night. Araw-araw ko siyang naiisip. I keep thinking what I could've done better, what I should've said, paano ko sana na-handle nang maayos bago naging ganito lahat. Kahit ngayon, I still care about you. I still ask about you minsan. Iniisip ko kung okay ka ba, kung masaya ka ba, kung may nagpapasaya na ba sayo ngayon. I don't even know if you ever felt something for me or kung ako lang talaga yung ganito. I tried to move forward. I met new people, may nagustuhan ako, may nakausap ako. Pero kahit anong gawin ko, may part pa rin sakin na bumabalik sayo. Hindi ka pa rin nawawala completely. And honestly, nakakainis minsan. I hate that I still care this much. I hate that I can't just let you go like it was nothing, kasi for me, hindi siya naging nothing. You were my first real love, and that's something I can't just erase. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sayo noon na hindi ko nasabi. I wanted to tell you how much you meant to me, how much you changed me, how much you made me want to be better. Pero hindi ko nagawa habang okay pa lahat. Minsan gusto kong mag reach out. Gusto ko lang malaman kung okay ka. Pero at the same time, alam ko na baka ayaw mo na, and that hurts. I still remember everything. The way you made me feel safe, the way I could be myself around you. Yung comfort na yun, hindi ko pa ulit nararamdaman. Hindi ko na rin alam kung mahal pa ba kita or nasanay lang ako sa feeling na naramdaman ko sayo. Ang alam ko lang, nandito ka pa rin sakin kahit wala ka na sa buhay ko.
2026-03-27 14:47:50