Jinx Nameless :
For me it's complicated. I just am unsure of what it is I should be seeking out and or what it is I need to change, not to mention i already feel like its too late for me. Growing up all I saw was men and women hating one another in their marriages and that was the norm, alongside abuse, neglect and etc. Growing up, I would think to myself, "thats not going to be me!" Now I am unsure especially with how I feel about life these past few years, my attitude, feelings about certain things, not to mention lack of experience in dating, flirting, and etc. I fear I am far behind socially as well because I still don't pick up on social cues and or understand things like most people, and I feel like a potential partner wouldn't want to deal with that to be honest. When I was younger, I truly was looking forward to the future and my future queen. Now I am 26 and I feel like I don't even know what love is or should be, and or even feelings should feel like perse. I have decided that I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life, which I tell myself is fine but it actually kills me internally. All I try to do now is take care of my Mom and Sister, and I pray my Sister finds a good partner in this hellhole we call life. I hope all the women out there find their perfect partner, and I hope all the Men out there find their Queens. And others like me, I hope we can heal in some way in the near future.
2026-02-07 12:17:19