blueberrifrappuxino :
hi Kent,
I've loved you. I really did. I want to say sorry. Sorry kung naging avoidant ako, kung pina-feel ko sa’yo na parang walang patutunguhan yung paghihintay mo. I know that must’ve hurt you, and you didn’t deserve that. The truth is, habang tumatagal—around the 6th to 8th month—ang hinihintay ko na lang talaga was for you to ask me again… kung pwede na ba manligaw, or if I could finally be your girlfriend. Hindi ko lang nasabi, hindi ko lang napakita. I held back too much. Hindi ako galit sa’yo for having someone else habang ine-entertain pa natin ang isa’t isa. I understand. Alam kong may pagkukulang din ako—especially with how distant and unsure I was. You deserve to be loved, not ignored… and I’m really sorry for making you feel that way.
I also realized na sinayang kita. I was just too scared. Natakot ako na baka gawin mo rin sa’kin yung ginawa mo before, back when we were in Grade 10. And to be honest, nadagdagan pa ‘yun dahil sa ginawa ng naging manliligaw ko. I let my fears control me, I'm sorry if I pushed you away so many times. Masaya ako para sa’yo, truly. You deserve that kind of happiness. Pero sana… kahit papaano, nalinaw man lang natin lahat. Sana nakapag-usap tayo nang maayos, or kahit nakapag-sorry man lang sa isa’t isa. Kahit sinabi mo lang sana sa’kin na may iba ka na, I think I would’ve understood better.
I still like you, Kent. Maybe a part of me always will. But if hanggang dito na lang talaga tayo, I’ll accept it. Maybe we’re just not meant for each other.
Take care always, okay? Be happy. I’ll be here, supporting you from afar, my Iris💗
2026-03-23 12:46:19