abdulishotasf :
I love you, Zara. I really do, not in a loud, reckless way, but in the way someone who truly loves, stays when it would’ve been easier to leave. I fought for us quietly, consistently, with patience I didn’t even know I had. I bent parts of myself just to make space for you, and I never once thought of it as a loss. I thought love was supposed to hurt a little, supposed to ask you to endure but loving you is wasn’t enough to save us.
Effort didn’t turn into a miracle. All that wanting, all that choosing, still wasn’t enough to change the ending. That’s the part I keep sitting with, the idea that you can do everything right and still lose someone. I guess it was just two people wanting different things at different depths. I replay everything in my head, not because I think I can fix it, but because part of me refuses to let it go. What we have matters to me. You matter to me.
I hate how easy it looks from the outside, like it was just another story that ended. It wasn’t. It lives in me. It shaped the way I speak, the way I wait, the way I love now, the way I don’t blame myself the way I used to. I showed up. I stayed honest. I loved you in the only way I knew how, fully, even when it scared me. If that wasn’t enough, then maybe it was never about my lack, but about timing, about alignment, about things no amount of fighting could fix. Because loving you was real, and losing you doesn’t erase that.
Right now, let's focus on our own career paths and separate lives first. And when the time is right, and when it’s already Allah’s Will for us to be together again, I hope we find our way back to each other. I will never love anyone again, not until you. If it's not you, it's not anyone. I love you with every piece of me, down to every single bone, my Zara. I am waiting for that day Zara, I’ll be waiting for the day we promised each other - that “one day”, we’ll find our way back. You know how seriously I take a pinky promise.
If the decision to leave was for you to reach all the dreams that you kept telling me then I willingly respect it and wholeheartedly support you through it. I wish you well, my dove. I love you, always and forever❤️
2026-03-28 16:34:46