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little does he know i wait until after he falls asleep just so i don’t miss a text or call from him. he’s literally all i talk about to the point where my friends are probably tired of hearing his name because somehow everything comes back to him. my whole day can change depending on how much he talks to me. i take any chance i get to go out, just hoping i might run into him. and i get so flustered when he says things like “i guess i’ll just keep thinking about it and not go to sleep” just because i said never mind, because he knows i care about him sleeping so i always end up caving in… and i hate how much that makes me smile. he notices when something’s off with me too, like the second i act even a little different he gets concerned and starts asking if i’m okay. he’s not a “you’re too complicated” kind of guy, he’s a “no talk to me, i always want to hear what you have to say” kind of guy, and that means more to me than he probably realizes. and when we’re together in person, i don’t think he understands how happy he makes me. i get all smiley just telling him random things and instead of being like every other nonchalant guy, his act literally disappears. his reactions match my stories, his facial expressions go crazy, and he actually listens instead of brushing me off. and the way he just quietly takes care of me, like how he’ll give me his hoodie when i need it without making a big deal out of it, just making sure i’m okay. and i don’t think he knows how happy it makes me that i’ve influenced him in a good way, like how he used to say “swear to god” but i didn’t like that so now he says “promise” instead. and the thing that makes me happiest is that he remembered our unspoken rule, that if one of us says “promise” the other has to say it back, anything else means something’s wrong… or they’re lying.
2026-03-30 00:56:09